So my fiance and I got into a bit of a tiff, not really a fight, but more a misunderstanding. I called him on it. He was upset, I could tell but he wouldn’t talk to me, apparently this is not a double standard since when he gets upset he doesn’t get suicidal. Well I don’t care, we are supposed to be a team and communication is a two way street.
So after that I went and laid down. I had forgotten to take my B12 pill and when I did he rushed into the room asking what I just took. A little bit of an over reaction since I wasn’t exactly quiet about it. So he asked considering how I feel was it a bad response, well yes and no. I get where he’s coming from, but at the same time I made a promise and he made a threat. I told him I wasn’t going to try again and he told me that if I did he was gone. This was back in October.
So I ended up texting him that I think I should go to the hospital. I’m spiralling down faster then I can stop. To which he proceeded to tell me that he didn’t think that was a good idea, since my daughter has a bunch of appointments coming up, and that I’m the only one that can pull myself out of it. He was talking like he knew what the hell he was talking about.
The fact that 3 days in a row I was in bed during the day (not like me) and blah blah blah. The same thing I hear from him all the time, I need to be more active and get out of the house more.
Well we have a gym membership, however he was waiting for me to ask to go. Well kind of hard with a daughter that I don’t trust to be home alone, and the fact that he sleeps all day. But, it was my fault for not asking.
So basically, no hospital and I have to pull myself out of this, which he doesn’t think I’m trying and which I know that I am.